I know most of you cannot understand how it feels to live with anxiety, but if you're one of those people that unfortunately do, you know how stressful it can be to see a doctor. For one, we are constantly criticized and looked down upon because what we have is a mental illness. An illness that is invisible most of the time and can be triggered by almost anything and that makes people believe that we are just hypochondriacs. This stigma that is put upon those of us who deal with this everyday of our lives know that this is not us being hypochondriacs and that this is real life for us. Each day we wake up with it live, go to work with it, have fun with it, it is always there. It becomes who we are and we forget the life we had without it. When we see fellow warriors like ourselves being scrutinized because others do not understand, we hide that part of ourselves as best as we can.
I'm not saying to never see a doctor/therapist because there are some really amazing ones out there, waiting for people like us to allow them to help but if you're unable to and you feel like all is lost, I want to tell you, you are not lost. There are many holistic ways of healing oneself from panic, anxiety, nervousness, etc. It's just a matter of how open you are to the possibilities of your body being able to heal itself and that not all medicine that is given to us by doctors are good for our bodies. I was put onto Prozac and Xanax for my anxiety, two pills that are highly addicting with dangerous side effects and can make one deal with withdrawals. Not to mention the short half-life it has, meaning it gets metabolized in no less than 6 hours so people take more to feel it. Here is a link talking about the effects of Xanax .
These two pills are suppose to help with my insomnia (Prozac) and anxiety disorder (Xanax) but what it actually did was make me feel horrible. I had the sweats, shakes and I was more anxious and paranoid thinking I would become addicted. I had no other choice but to stop taking them and I am quite proud of myself for doing so. These pills might be able to help others but for me, it just constrained who I was as a person. I didn't laugh, smile or talk and I slept for hours on end, it made me extremely lonely and depressed. I'm now learning to deal with my anxiety through communication, awareness, meditation and writing. I can't say that these work all the time because they don't and it really varies based on my anxiety attack at the moment but I'm trying. I'm trying to find safer ways for us so that we do not just become a statistic of "someone who overdosed because their life was bad." I want people to see that this is real and it needs to be talked about. There is a site I usually go to, to remind myself that I am not alone. It's the Anxiety and Depression Association of America . There is an area where it talks about alternative treatments which I thought was really great, but it still is a bit shallow. So I've been doing my own little alternative treatments to myself for some time.
I happened to come across a different form of anxiety healing called auriculotherapy when I was scrolling down my Instagram feed and saw @themodernsage 's post. I was so interested that I went to Modern Sage, a holistic store located downtown in Jersey City, owned by a woman named Leah Guy. It's a lovely little store filled with healing candles, oils, sage sticks, a room for acupuncture and even a meditation room. I bought the earseeds that I saw in her post and will be testing them out later on tonight.
I've never heard of Auriculotherapy before but with the help of wikipedia, I learned that it deals with pressure points in the ear that connect with overall health. It's like acupressure but you keep these stickers on your ears and rub when needed.
It comes with the seeds and its own tweezers which is nice. The instructions are simple to read and have helpful images that show you how to place it on. Tonight with the help of my fiance, I'll be testing this out. I'll be keeping a log of my emotional state and if I feel an overall change. Before I want to end this post, I just want my fellow anxiety warriors to know they are not alone and that we are lucky to be living in the generation that we are now. A generation full of possibilities for our healing and even cure. Don't lose that hope. Until then,